I Want to Hold Aono-kun so Badly I Could Die

• Ja Kanji — 青野くんに触りたいから死にたい • Ja Romaji — Aono-kun ni Sawaritai kara Shinitai • Genre — * Horror • Romance • Supernatural thriller

• Type — manga • Author — Umi Shiina • Publisher — Kodansha • Imprint — Afternoon KC • Magazine — Monthly Afternoon • First — December 24, 2016 • Last — October 24, 2025 • Volumes — 14

• Type — drama • Director — Sumisu • Writer — Shinya Tamada • Studio — Socket • Network — Wowow • First — March 18, 2022 • Last — May 20, 2022 • Episodes — 10

• Portal — yes I Want to Hold Aono-kun so Badly I Could Die is a Japanese manga series written and illustrated by Umi Shiina. It was serialized in Kodansha's seinen manga magazine Monthly Afternoon from December 2016 to October 2025, with its chapters collected in 14 tankōbon volumes. A television drama adaptation aired from March to May 2022 on Wowow.

Yuri Kariya is a female high-school student who starts a relationship with another student, Ryuhei Aono, from the next class. However, two weeks later, Aono dies in a car accident. When, distraught, Yuri attempts to commit suicide, Aono appears to her as a ghost, and tells her that he will be there for her, and not to die, and Yuri accepts. They continue their "relationship", with Yuri pretending to be talking on the phone around people so as to continue talking with him. One day, Yuri suggests that Aono should try possession. Aono is confused, but then he possesses her body briefly. Since that moment, Aono develops a second, darker personality, "Black Aono", who tries to possess people around him, becoming increasingly powerful and attempting to take Yuri to the afterworld. Aono's best friend from before his death, Masayoshi Fujimoto, and reclusive and horror movie fanatic Mio Horie, deepen their friendship as they investigate the secret of Black Aono.

• Ryuhei Aono • Shori Sato • Yuri's boyfriend. He is a male student at Kazachi High School, class 2C. He died two weeks after starting a relationship with Yuri, and appears as a ghost from then on. He has a gentle and sincere personality. However, since he became a ghost, he has developed a darker alternate personality, called "Black Aono." • Yuri Kariya • Hikaru Takahashi • A female student at Kazachi High School, class 2D. She is a natural airhead and the owner of a single-minded personality. She was in a relationship with Aono before he died, and continues to be in a relationship with him even after he became a ghost. She is in a state of "sacrificial contract" with Aono, and her appearance has been changing due to the contract. • Masayoshi Fujimoto • Fūju Kamio • Aono's friend. He is a male student at Kazachi High School, class 2C. He is harsh in his words, but kind at heart. He is the only one other than Yuri who knows that Aono has become a ghost, but unlike her, he cannot see him. • Mio Horie • Ririka • A female student at Kazachi High School and classmate of Yuri's. She has a deep knowledge of horror films, and cooperates with Yuuri and Fujimoto to investigate Aono.

Written and illustrated by Umi Shiina, I Want to Hold Aono-kun so Badly I Could Die was serialized in Kodansha's seinen manga magazine Monthly Afternoon from December 24, 2016, to September 25, 2025; an epilogue chapter was published on October 24, 2025. Kodansha collected its chapters in 14 tankōbon volumes, released from June 23, 2017, to January 22, 2026. In North America, Kodansha USA started publishing the manga digitally in English on October 24, 2017. In August 2026, Kodansha USA announced that it will release the manga in print starting in December of the same year.

In May 2021, a television drama adaptation produced by Wowow was announced. The series was directed by Sumisu, with scripts by Shinya Tamada, and stars Shori Sato. It aired from March 18 to May 20, 2022.

I Want to Hold Aono-kun so Badly I Could Die is associated with Japan.